I should probably be a lot happier than I am right now. I think this could be accredited to the fantastical idea of my ideal life. It's hard to not have expectations and it's worse when the expections are impossible to live up to. I apologize to anyone I have been cold to because you didn't fulfill my ridiculous expectation of perfection. It's not easy to live like nothing bothers you when the slightest missteps make you go insane. For the first time in my life I can really see my faults, and yet I still struggle to fix them. Maybe it's my demand for instant gratification and little patience, or maybe I'm just fixated on this self-destructive life I lead.
"I'm a moon that never shows it's face, I'm a mouth that doesn't smile, I'm a word that no one ever wants to say"
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