Today it occurred to me that I may very well be the most boring person I know. For me new years eve was probably far more boring than everyone else's. Other than the part where my intoxicated uncle made an ass of himself. His 8 year old daughter apologized for his behavior. He's one of those people that like to drink their problems away, but when your 8 year old daughter has to apologize for your actions, it might be time for some self-assessment. But honestly, it has come to a point where I really don't even like to leave my house. I apologize to the people that I have cancelled plans with due to me being too indecisive to make a real decision, me being too nonchalant and narcissistic to even consider others, and me just being an asshole. Or maybe I'm just lazy. I use the same old overused, tired, cliche excuses in order to prevent myself from sounding like a jerk although I'm fully aware that I am many times. I remember when I wasn't so caught up in these thoughts of self-pity and loathing. I miss being carefree. It's sad that this blog has become a place where a lot of times I'm just babbling about how much i hate myself. There are a few things I do like though. For another time.
"If trageds appealing, then disasters an addiction" - Moneen
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